I just had a thought. And I haven't posted anything in a really long time. So I'm going to share. I heard a song the other day which had a line that went, "And I don't have to love a thing to much". I'd heard this song many times but right then, I heard that lyric.
It's so much easier not to love.
It's so much easier to just be selfish and pursue one's own passions and not consider those who might be depending on you. It's so much easier to not have to commit to anything so that your never obligated to do something uncomfortable. It's so much easier to steal and cheat your way to the finish line and the prize without actually running the race. It's so much easier to just turn your back on someone who has offended you and leave them behind. It's so much easier not to forgive than to give the offender mercy and grace. It's so much easier not to open up to someone and subject yourself to accountability or possible rebuke. It's so much easier to lay in a cookie-cutter and be a surface-talker never knowing anyone and never being known, never sharing your beliefs, never doing anything different. It's so much easier to appease your minuet-emotions rather than stop your desires to consider the end effect. It's so much easier to self analyze your own contradictions all the time and not challenge yourself with any action.
It's so much easier not to love.
But is it?
Does life become any easier when you choose not to forget the offenses of your neighbor so that you sit and are reminded of them and they pain you as long as you hold them. Does it really become any easier when after you've got the trophy and are heading home, the law comes collecting and you face the consequences? Is it really any easier to hide your beliefs and convictions so that sooner or later you feel unknown by those around you and insecure about who you are? Does it become any easier the longer you self analyze and then one day look back to find all that time has gone and you've got nothing to show for it? Does it really become easier to ignore those who depend on you or have invested time into you until they finally leave and take they're support with them? Does it really become easier when after you've appeased your momentary urges you have to deal with sour seeds you've sown around you?
It's so much harder to invest and sacrifice in a brighter future, than to live loveless and expect you'll get a good share somehow.
But by God, in the end of the day, it's worth it.
